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Wednesday 19 December 2012
Tuesday 18 December 2012
Tuesday 11 December 2012
Monday 26 November 2012
Thursday 22 November 2012
Tuesday 13 November 2012
Monday 5 November 2012
Wednesday 24 October 2012
MTFC Hall of Fame inductees - Historical Photos
Some shots of the inaugural inductees to the Merthyr Town Football Club Hall of Fame. Albert Lindon, Chris Holvey, Syd Howarth, Ken Tucker, Gordon Davies and
Thursday 13 September 2012
Lawless...pretty flawless.
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'Lawless' is an adaptation of a true story that sees three brothers fight the law, and in the process, become heroes for standing up for the basic principles they believe in |
So, just got back from watching 'Lawless' in the cinema.
Couple of thoughts on the movie, as always, not giving away any plot-spoilers. I wouldn't like it if it was done for me, I simply remark on the film as a whole and let you guys and girls decide whether it's worthy of your time.
Tom Hardy. Is there another more consistently brilliant actor out there right now in 2012. The guy has been on a roll the last two years or so with just constantly great (let's not be modest) performances. This was no different for him, as he took on the mantle of Forrest Bondurant, the rugged, rough leader of the Bondurant brothers.
Another fantastic outing for Tom Hardy and Guy Pearce, in roles that will no doubt rate up there amongst their very best when it's all said and done. There is a depth, warmth, coldness, grittiness and overwhelming power that both men are able to muster for two very, very different characters. Shia Lebeouf also held his own in a cast littered with readily available talent as youngest brother, Jack Bondurant.
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The relationship between Forrest and Jack (Hardy and Lebeouf) is a focal point of the story and is a chance to show what both actors can seriously do |
Quickly, I'd also like to point out the strength of the music in this film. The soundtrack, being compiled of songs from Nick Cave and Warren Ellis, and primarily performed by a sessional band, The Bootleggers (see the connection to a prohibition-era film?) is stupidly strong. The choice of certain tracks (Fire and Brimstone, Burning Hell, White Light/White Heat) just seem to fit so well with the story and the look of the film and only serve to create an even richer viewing experience. The fact that the same songs are replayed by different artists and with different connotations and feeling behind them is a clever thing to have happen here as well. Talk about giving your film a voice and a plethora of accompanying tunes.
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Will there be a more-hated bad guy on-screen in 2012 than Special Agent Charley Rakes? (Guy Pearce) It will take some topping. This guy is one mean son of a bitch! |
Wednesday 29 August 2012
The Expendables 2...A very quick review
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The Expendables 2 mixes all the insane action, comedy and over-the-top moments from the first film with even bigger explosions, fight scenes and memorable on-screen cameos |
All I'll say is that if you want action, lots of in-jokes and movie references, copious amounts of violence and as a near-perfect action legend cast as has ever been assembled: this is the one for you.
Stallone, Statham, Crews and Lundgren are the core of this film this time around. Jet Li pops in for a cup of coffee (but has a great, great fight scene in a kitchen), Liam Hemsworth is a valued member for his stint on-screen (possibly big things for that young man in the future), Yu Nan makes the first real female Expendable and Jean-Claude Van Damme is a very worthy adversary to the heroes. After so many films where he was the martial-arts wielding good guy, it was nice to see Van Damme hit his stride as Jean Vilain (who is as 80s/90s action movie bad guy as you'll ever see grace the screen and who who provided a fantastic boss-battle with Stallone).
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Chuck Norris returns (albeit briefly) as Booker, a retired military man who let's face it, steals the whole show |
So, I'll leave it there. No plot surprises or spoilers here, just some general views and opinions on what will surely be another huge summer hit. Let me know what you think about this guts-and-glory action epic on here or on Twitter at @markabraham89
Monday 27 August 2012
Big Cats in the UK...Not such a far-flung idea
These days it would be insane to think of keeping a panther, lion, crocodile or other potentially dangerous, large, wild animal as a domesticated pet. But back in the UK of the 1960s and early 1970s, it was not only perfectly legal, but the 'in', 'hip' and 'stylish' thing to be done. There wasn't the need for a license or any training in how to handle them. In fact, you could very easily take your leopard out for a casual stroll at any time you wanted.
However, in 1976, the Government introduced the Dangerous Wild Animals Act as a way of protecting the public and ensuring that the animals in question were being looked after appropriately. Many owners gave their animals to zoos or wildlife parks/preserves. Some reluctantly resorted to having their pet put down. But there were others who simply released these impressive creatures into the wild. The crazy thing was, until a legal loop-hole was discovered in 1981, this wasn't actually against the law. They were perfectly within their rights to offload these beasts into the British countryside.
Many people forget this when hearing about a 'Big Cat' sighting and just dismiss the possibility as ridiculous. In reality, when you look at how resourceful these animals are and how they are natural-born survivors in the wild, it's not that far fetched to at least contend that they can exist.
This blog was spurned on by today's story of an apparent lion sighting in Essex. The police must have at least considered it a possibility and potential reality from the amount of officers and resources that were deployed to track down the mystery feline. Just thought that the Big Cats in the UK topic is always one that sparks interest and divides opinions.
What are yours? @markabraham89
However, in 1976, the Government introduced the Dangerous Wild Animals Act as a way of protecting the public and ensuring that the animals in question were being looked after appropriately. Many owners gave their animals to zoos or wildlife parks/preserves. Some reluctantly resorted to having their pet put down. But there were others who simply released these impressive creatures into the wild. The crazy thing was, until a legal loop-hole was discovered in 1981, this wasn't actually against the law. They were perfectly within their rights to offload these beasts into the British countryside.
Many people forget this when hearing about a 'Big Cat' sighting and just dismiss the possibility as ridiculous. In reality, when you look at how resourceful these animals are and how they are natural-born survivors in the wild, it's not that far fetched to at least contend that they can exist.
This blog was spurned on by today's story of an apparent lion sighting in Essex. The police must have at least considered it a possibility and potential reality from the amount of officers and resources that were deployed to track down the mystery feline. Just thought that the Big Cats in the UK topic is always one that sparks interest and divides opinions.
What are yours? @markabraham89
Friday 24 August 2012
...And Justice For All?
Justice is a noun which in this context is translated as 'the administering of deserved punishment or reward'. It is the notion that the correct, appropriate punishment will be carried out for the person or persons who committed the crime. Steal a sweet from a shop - get a slap on the wrist. Rob a jewellers - get an extended sentence in prison. Perform genocide on a mass level - death. Murder multitudes of innocent young people - 21 years.
Yet it seems Anders Breivik has managed to swerve the true meaning of justice. Today, a Norweigan court found the mass-murderer and self-confessed terrorist 'sane' and as a result, sentenced him to 21 years in prison.
We are talking here about a man who murdered 77 people and wounded more than 240 others in two attacks on 22 July 2011. Calculated and cold, sadistic and grim. Those are the types of phrases I (and most likely, many others) would use to describe the 33 year old. Definitely not sane. And definitely not deserving of a life behind bars.
His incarceration has been a top story today as the world cries and groans collectively at this seemingly lax sentence for such a horrifying crime. He said he'd do the same thing all over again and he's doing it for a cause. As all huge atrocities are justified: a cause. He's basically got what some people have for tax fraud. It's beyond ridiculous and begs the question: will prison always be the answer? Trying to rehabilitate and segregate the evil in society can work, it's been proven to in the past. But there has also been examples when some instances need more dramatic and final solutions.
If it has done nothing else, this story has sparked the debate as to the tolerancen and democracy in Norway. But you only have to see the stats and numbers when talking about this crime to see that 21 years just isn't the appropriate sentence. I do not endorse murder, I despise murderers. And that brings us to an interesting paradox if indeed the death sentence was carried out, for surely we would be murderers then too? Or would it be justified? I know my thoughts on that grey-area.
As Breivik enjoys the isolation of a high-security prison cell, the families of those who killed and maimed will attempt to move on with their lives. They won't get a chance to sit down for dinner together or enjoy another Christmas, they can't even breathe the same air. There's something wrong with that picture if you were to ask me. The death penalty is something that has been hotly contested for some time. A life for a life. But when you have incidents such as Breivik and even as recently as James Holmes in the Aurora shootings, surely it isn't just a life for a life. It's one life for the 77 that he took. There has to be justification there.
What do you think of the judge's ruling and sentencing on Anders Breivik? Let me on here or through Twitter at @markabraham89
Yet it seems Anders Breivik has managed to swerve the true meaning of justice. Today, a Norweigan court found the mass-murderer and self-confessed terrorist 'sane' and as a result, sentenced him to 21 years in prison.
We are talking here about a man who murdered 77 people and wounded more than 240 others in two attacks on 22 July 2011. Calculated and cold, sadistic and grim. Those are the types of phrases I (and most likely, many others) would use to describe the 33 year old. Definitely not sane. And definitely not deserving of a life behind bars.
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The face of evil...Anders Breivik in court |
If it has done nothing else, this story has sparked the debate as to the tolerancen and democracy in Norway. But you only have to see the stats and numbers when talking about this crime to see that 21 years just isn't the appropriate sentence. I do not endorse murder, I despise murderers. And that brings us to an interesting paradox if indeed the death sentence was carried out, for surely we would be murderers then too? Or would it be justified? I know my thoughts on that grey-area.
As Breivik enjoys the isolation of a high-security prison cell, the families of those who killed and maimed will attempt to move on with their lives. They won't get a chance to sit down for dinner together or enjoy another Christmas, they can't even breathe the same air. There's something wrong with that picture if you were to ask me. The death penalty is something that has been hotly contested for some time. A life for a life. But when you have incidents such as Breivik and even as recently as James Holmes in the Aurora shootings, surely it isn't just a life for a life. It's one life for the 77 that he took. There has to be justification there.
What do you think of the judge's ruling and sentencing on Anders Breivik? Let me on here or through Twitter at @markabraham89
Friday 17 August 2012
Getting It Out - A short story
Something a bit different today. I wrote this short story back in 2010, with hopes of getting it published along with other shorts as part of a Valleys-life inspired collection (which obviously never happened). Found it whilst going through my computer earlier and thought I'd post up here. Hope you enjoy and can relate some of the characters or situations to things you've experienced yourselves. Leave me know your thoughts either on here or on Twitter at @markabraham89
It was a
mumble, or maybe it was more of a mutter. I don’t know. What I do know, is that
it was audible, which, with my mother, wasn’t something I wanted.
“You wha’?” said Mam, in that kind of half-caring way that she had the ability to hit on the head. She was definitely on to me though. She’d heard the mumble, or the mutter, whichever one. She’d heard it and now she wasn’t going to let it go until I repeated myself clearly for the world and its dog to hear loud and clear. I had, in plainer words, been rumbled.
I knew it. I couldn’t keep my trap shut. It was one of my lesser qualities. I ‘had a gob’ on me, or so my aunty kept telling me. Fine one to talk she is, you dare not tell her anything private. That is, not if you want it to remain private. There again, maybe I did have a ‘gob’ on me.
“Huh?” she grunted.
Maybe by just pretending Mam hadn’t said anything to me, it would magically be forgotten. I had serious doubts about this plan of attack though. Mam was the kind of woman who would hound you until you just caved in. I imagine she could have had a career with relative ease somewhere like Guantanamo Bay. I can almost see her photo up in the staff room, under the title “Employee of the Month”. She’d put them all to shame, fair play to her.
“Oh! You know, sometimes I think things go in one ear and out the bloody other with you.”
“Oh ai, you not wrong there. He don’t know what day it is mun!”
I don’t know what it had to do with my neighbour, but Gaynor seemed to think her input at this time was needed, “Look at him. In a world of his own he is mun. I bet he’s got some nonsense going on in that head of his.”
Gaynor was a good natured woman for the most part. She had known Mam for years, even before they lived across the street from one another. They had grown up in the same part of Penydarren and had been friends as children. It was hard to think of her as a child now though; I’d go so far as to say it was almost impossible. To me, Gaynor Lewis was a nice enough lady, although her actions in “The Norton” on a Friday night did make one wonder sometimes. If anything would make you laugh, cry, cringe and freeze with disbelief all in one fantastic moment, it was seeing Gaynor hitting pints of beer like there was going to be a drought. Many people wondered how she’d be able to make it back up the hill to the house, whereas others just assumed she stayed in the pub for the night when they’d see her the following day. If you ask me, I think it was half and half. Sometimes she’d struggle her way up the hill, grasping tightly onto windowsills to pull herself from house to house, and other times, she’d be just as content sleeping in the bar. Funnily enough, it was the latter that caused her to be sent home from “The Rose & Crown” on many an occasion and why she now frequented “The Norton”.
We’d lived in Brynhyfryd Street for as long as I can remember. Likewise, for as long as I can remember, Gaynor had been our neighbour. She was just one of those people in life that always seemed to be there and someone who, if they weren’t around, would definitely leave a void. Number 67 was our house, with Gaynor occupying 66 across the road. The great thing about having her across the way from us, opposed to right next door, was the tactical advantage. Or so Dad would tell me. He would assess how much he could handle a conversation with her before deciding whether he’d stay in the chair as she waltzed in looking for Mam or if he’d make a mad action-film like dash for the front door, lock it and then remain hidden out of sight until she decided she’d come back later.
It wasn’t that Dad didn’t like Gaynor as such. It was more that my father wasn’t a woman, as many men aren’t I’d hope. He could not understand for the life of him, how the women in the street were able to socialise in the way they did best: spreading gossip. He didn’t see how they could seemingly deduce that Mrs Coles down the street was having an affair behind Mr Coles’ back just from the fact she wore a blue skirt on a Tuesday and a mauve skirt on a Friday. Saying that, it doesn’t really make all that much sense to me either, but apparently, Gaynor had it on very good authority that this was not a fabrication. It was fact. The very best of luck to whoever would want to dispute it.
That was one thing Dad made sure not to do: have any sort of dispute with Gaynor. My mother, he could try his luck with, he’d maybe even win a few little skirmishes. Gaynor, however, was a different breed of woman. He’d knighted her with such distinguished titles as “Battle Axe”, “Queen Almighty” and my personal favourite, “The Gob”. Even my aunty, ever one to pass judgement on others before looking at herself, refrained from challenging Gaynor to a verbal sparring contest.
“...and that’s what I said to her. I said, ‘Listen now Marian’ I said, ‘I haven’t got the problem. You’ve got the problem!’ I couldn’t believe the cheek on her!” said a flustered Gaynor, as Mam went about washing whatever plates were left in the sink from dinner.
Even Mam, who had an inspirational amount of patience, must sometimes want to bury her head in the sand away from Gaynor. There has got to be some reason she scrubs the plates to within an inch of their life when Gaynor gets into a rant, other than Dad’s incessant need for everything to be spotlessly clean.
“I know what you mean love. It’s wrong mun,” Mam said, with no real feeling on the matter, judging from the tone of her voice.
“Oh! It gets me so bloody riled! I tell you!” said Gaynor.
She’d even exhibited a kind of shiver at that last bit of being riled up. Whatever Marian had said to her, she had taken exception. This wasn’t uncommon, not when it involved Gaynor anyway.
She was sat opposite me now, stirring her tea so hard I thought she’d instigate a tsunami in the cup. Marian had obviously got under her skin and the tea, cup and spoon, which clanged against the sides of the mug violently, were paying the price. I would have asked what was wrong with her but she beat me to it by questioning me instead.
“So, are you going to actually tell us?”
“Tell you wha’?” came my short reply.
I had been so lost in thought I’d forgotten exactly what I could have been lined up to say to the two middle-aged women before me.
“God! Planet Earth calling Ieuan! Hello! Hello! Is anybody out there?” Gaynor’s comedic jab raised a little bit of a smile from Mam, who had finished wiping any remaining dirt particle that could have survived the scrubbing war she’d just won.
She threw down the tea-towel on the counter and rested against it, picking up her ‘cuppa’ with a lot more care than Gaynor had managed to.
“Ai, c’mon. What did you say?”
No, she wouldn’t let this one lie. She was determined as ever to get it out of me. It was one of those moments in life where you instantly regret what you’ve said. It isn’t so bad if it goes under the radar or even if it’s ignored by principle. That is something I can handle. In fact, I’d embrace it right about now.
“He don’t even know what he was gonna say himself mun Sue,” piped Gaynor.
She did have a knack of sticking her oar into most facets of everyday life, I’ll give her that. On this occasion however, she was very much wrong. That’s right, the all-powerful Gaynor Lewis was wrong. I did know what I was going to say. More importantly, I know why I’d mumbled it rather than gone out into the middle of the street, rain or no rain, and screamed it across Penydarren.
It was a big decision for me. That’s what someone like Gaynor had failed to realise. She was happy enough in her day-to-day life. She had the very existence she knew she was destined to have from a very young age. Yes, Gaynor Eileen Lewis of Number 66, Brynhyfryd Street, Penydarren in the heart of Merthyr Tydfil, had achieved her goal. She was a ‘Valley Woman’.
She was one of these women who most ‘self-respecting’ people would cringe at if they were interviewed on the 6 o’clock news. Her voice was finely tuned and could have been used for a comparison between an impressionist imitating a stereotypical Valleys voice and the real thing. She knew everything about everyone, still did her shopping in the grocers in town and had seen Tom Jones sing before he was famous. Yet, she held all these things close to her heart. She had aspired to be looked at as one of these mythical creatures and somehow, through years of toil, she’d gotten there. She was even so good at living her role, I sometimes wondered if she had established a league of her own. Mam was something, don’t get me wrong, but she was absolutely nothing in comparison. Her group of friends looked like amateurs when you put them next to each other.
What I really wanted to know though, was whether I’d be content being a ‘Valley Man’. Did I have any fire in me? Did I have any desire to want to change my set of circumstances? I wasn’t entirely sure and it was that uncertainty that made me uneasy. I hadn’t had a bad upbringing, nor was my standard of living bad. I couldn’t complain, as I was often reminded by Dad, as I had it better than some. I suppose the real question I had, deep inside my brain, was where did I realistically see myself in ten or twenty years?
Would I be a doctor? Helping save lives and making life-and-death decisions all day seemed like a high-power, exciting job and there was always good pay for doctors. It was a profession that wouldn’t go out of fashion, like undertakers, as Dad would always remind me. He always told me if he was sacked from his job, which he was threatened with about three or four times a year on average, he would become an undertaker. He didn’t seem to mind the less appealing part of the job description: the handling of a corpse, the constant funerals you’d be attending, the general broody attitude you’d have to adopt to effectively look like you belong in your job. I suppose he had a point though, it was definitely a job that would always be around.
Maybe I could be a teacher and pass my knowledge on to a younger generation. Saying that, it is important to have a fair amount of knowledge yourself before you decide to attempt to impart it on younger, more fragile minds. Plus, I remember how much disdain I had for certain teachers in school. It didn’t fill me with confidence. I’d have to be one of the ‘cool’ teachers who was in touch with the ‘kids’, opposed to the slightly creepy teachers who, if you listened to some of the rumours started at dinner time, preferred to get to know the children a little better than they should. Maybe teaching was off the list then. Another possible job hitting the bin of rejection hard and fast, joining astronaut, lawyer, ninja and president of my own small country.
The ‘other’ option though, now that was scary.
“Have you been down the market this week Sue?” asked Gaynor.
They’d obviously given up on what I had said under my breath; it was that or they’d gotten bored of waiting for me to respond. No, I knew for a fact that they hadn’t given up. They’d just decided that the two-for-one deal on scouring pads in the regular Tuesday outdoor market was just far too important to let slip into the recesses of their memories. For the love of all that is sacred, I could not imagine how life in Merthyr would continue for these women if they didn’t have scouring pads. I knew for a fact that Gaynor bought in bulk, like some sort of weird dealer, so that she was always equipped should the time arise when there was a scouring shortage in the Valleys. Shame is, the only shortage would be when she’d bought the allocated stock for Cardiff, Swansea and Newport and kept it under her sink.
“No. I didn’t manage to get down there this week. That bloody get from the insurance firm rung. Oh! I tell you! I was on the phone, wait for it...half an hour!”
“Never to God!” Gaynor shook her head, with utter disbelief.
She seemingly couldn’t fathom a half an hour conversation over the phone with the insurance firm. It wasn’t unheard of, but to Gaynor, it was like nothing she’d ever had to go through.
It was during this interchange that I decided I’d switch rooms. The kitchen had been my refuge for a couple of minutes. Those precious seconds had been stolen away though when Mam had come in from hanging out the washing. The peace that I had been craving, and had found in the kitchen, was instantly shattered moments later when Gaynor joined the fray, sweeping into the room like some sort of dramatic caped crusader in her coat. I’m not going to lie, normally I’d call her all the things under the sun for running from one side of the street to the other in a coat. Today however, I think the weather did warrant the wearing of an anti-rain piece of clothing. The heavens had opened and it was lashing down, something akin to what Noah experienced probably. But what Noah would worry about would only be classed as a ‘light shower’ in Merthyr, where rain was part of the national identity.
Also, in Gaynor’s defence, the last time it had been raining and she’d made the dash from her house to our house, Dad had decided it wasn’t a day he could cope with her and had promptly locked the door. I had to admit, there was something funny about seeing Gaynor having a fit, trying to clamber into the four or five inches of space the alcove of the door provided, shouting that she had something really important to tell Mam. Even Mam had laughed as we had watched Gaynor go to run back across the street, only to be confronted with a woman in heels’ worst nightmare: a puddle on a day of torrential rain.
“You wha’?” said Mam, in that kind of half-caring way that she had the ability to hit on the head. She was definitely on to me though. She’d heard the mumble, or the mutter, whichever one. She’d heard it and now she wasn’t going to let it go until I repeated myself clearly for the world and its dog to hear loud and clear. I had, in plainer words, been rumbled.
I knew it. I couldn’t keep my trap shut. It was one of my lesser qualities. I ‘had a gob’ on me, or so my aunty kept telling me. Fine one to talk she is, you dare not tell her anything private. That is, not if you want it to remain private. There again, maybe I did have a ‘gob’ on me.
“Huh?” she grunted.
Maybe by just pretending Mam hadn’t said anything to me, it would magically be forgotten. I had serious doubts about this plan of attack though. Mam was the kind of woman who would hound you until you just caved in. I imagine she could have had a career with relative ease somewhere like Guantanamo Bay. I can almost see her photo up in the staff room, under the title “Employee of the Month”. She’d put them all to shame, fair play to her.
“Oh! You know, sometimes I think things go in one ear and out the bloody other with you.”
“Oh ai, you not wrong there. He don’t know what day it is mun!”
I don’t know what it had to do with my neighbour, but Gaynor seemed to think her input at this time was needed, “Look at him. In a world of his own he is mun. I bet he’s got some nonsense going on in that head of his.”
Gaynor was a good natured woman for the most part. She had known Mam for years, even before they lived across the street from one another. They had grown up in the same part of Penydarren and had been friends as children. It was hard to think of her as a child now though; I’d go so far as to say it was almost impossible. To me, Gaynor Lewis was a nice enough lady, although her actions in “The Norton” on a Friday night did make one wonder sometimes. If anything would make you laugh, cry, cringe and freeze with disbelief all in one fantastic moment, it was seeing Gaynor hitting pints of beer like there was going to be a drought. Many people wondered how she’d be able to make it back up the hill to the house, whereas others just assumed she stayed in the pub for the night when they’d see her the following day. If you ask me, I think it was half and half. Sometimes she’d struggle her way up the hill, grasping tightly onto windowsills to pull herself from house to house, and other times, she’d be just as content sleeping in the bar. Funnily enough, it was the latter that caused her to be sent home from “The Rose & Crown” on many an occasion and why she now frequented “The Norton”.
We’d lived in Brynhyfryd Street for as long as I can remember. Likewise, for as long as I can remember, Gaynor had been our neighbour. She was just one of those people in life that always seemed to be there and someone who, if they weren’t around, would definitely leave a void. Number 67 was our house, with Gaynor occupying 66 across the road. The great thing about having her across the way from us, opposed to right next door, was the tactical advantage. Or so Dad would tell me. He would assess how much he could handle a conversation with her before deciding whether he’d stay in the chair as she waltzed in looking for Mam or if he’d make a mad action-film like dash for the front door, lock it and then remain hidden out of sight until she decided she’d come back later.
It wasn’t that Dad didn’t like Gaynor as such. It was more that my father wasn’t a woman, as many men aren’t I’d hope. He could not understand for the life of him, how the women in the street were able to socialise in the way they did best: spreading gossip. He didn’t see how they could seemingly deduce that Mrs Coles down the street was having an affair behind Mr Coles’ back just from the fact she wore a blue skirt on a Tuesday and a mauve skirt on a Friday. Saying that, it doesn’t really make all that much sense to me either, but apparently, Gaynor had it on very good authority that this was not a fabrication. It was fact. The very best of luck to whoever would want to dispute it.
That was one thing Dad made sure not to do: have any sort of dispute with Gaynor. My mother, he could try his luck with, he’d maybe even win a few little skirmishes. Gaynor, however, was a different breed of woman. He’d knighted her with such distinguished titles as “Battle Axe”, “Queen Almighty” and my personal favourite, “The Gob”. Even my aunty, ever one to pass judgement on others before looking at herself, refrained from challenging Gaynor to a verbal sparring contest.
“...and that’s what I said to her. I said, ‘Listen now Marian’ I said, ‘I haven’t got the problem. You’ve got the problem!’ I couldn’t believe the cheek on her!” said a flustered Gaynor, as Mam went about washing whatever plates were left in the sink from dinner.
Even Mam, who had an inspirational amount of patience, must sometimes want to bury her head in the sand away from Gaynor. There has got to be some reason she scrubs the plates to within an inch of their life when Gaynor gets into a rant, other than Dad’s incessant need for everything to be spotlessly clean.
“I know what you mean love. It’s wrong mun,” Mam said, with no real feeling on the matter, judging from the tone of her voice.
“Oh! It gets me so bloody riled! I tell you!” said Gaynor.
She’d even exhibited a kind of shiver at that last bit of being riled up. Whatever Marian had said to her, she had taken exception. This wasn’t uncommon, not when it involved Gaynor anyway.
She was sat opposite me now, stirring her tea so hard I thought she’d instigate a tsunami in the cup. Marian had obviously got under her skin and the tea, cup and spoon, which clanged against the sides of the mug violently, were paying the price. I would have asked what was wrong with her but she beat me to it by questioning me instead.
“So, are you going to actually tell us?”
“Tell you wha’?” came my short reply.
I had been so lost in thought I’d forgotten exactly what I could have been lined up to say to the two middle-aged women before me.
“God! Planet Earth calling Ieuan! Hello! Hello! Is anybody out there?” Gaynor’s comedic jab raised a little bit of a smile from Mam, who had finished wiping any remaining dirt particle that could have survived the scrubbing war she’d just won.
She threw down the tea-towel on the counter and rested against it, picking up her ‘cuppa’ with a lot more care than Gaynor had managed to.
“Ai, c’mon. What did you say?”
No, she wouldn’t let this one lie. She was determined as ever to get it out of me. It was one of those moments in life where you instantly regret what you’ve said. It isn’t so bad if it goes under the radar or even if it’s ignored by principle. That is something I can handle. In fact, I’d embrace it right about now.
“He don’t even know what he was gonna say himself mun Sue,” piped Gaynor.
She did have a knack of sticking her oar into most facets of everyday life, I’ll give her that. On this occasion however, she was very much wrong. That’s right, the all-powerful Gaynor Lewis was wrong. I did know what I was going to say. More importantly, I know why I’d mumbled it rather than gone out into the middle of the street, rain or no rain, and screamed it across Penydarren.
It was a big decision for me. That’s what someone like Gaynor had failed to realise. She was happy enough in her day-to-day life. She had the very existence she knew she was destined to have from a very young age. Yes, Gaynor Eileen Lewis of Number 66, Brynhyfryd Street, Penydarren in the heart of Merthyr Tydfil, had achieved her goal. She was a ‘Valley Woman’.
She was one of these women who most ‘self-respecting’ people would cringe at if they were interviewed on the 6 o’clock news. Her voice was finely tuned and could have been used for a comparison between an impressionist imitating a stereotypical Valleys voice and the real thing. She knew everything about everyone, still did her shopping in the grocers in town and had seen Tom Jones sing before he was famous. Yet, she held all these things close to her heart. She had aspired to be looked at as one of these mythical creatures and somehow, through years of toil, she’d gotten there. She was even so good at living her role, I sometimes wondered if she had established a league of her own. Mam was something, don’t get me wrong, but she was absolutely nothing in comparison. Her group of friends looked like amateurs when you put them next to each other.
What I really wanted to know though, was whether I’d be content being a ‘Valley Man’. Did I have any fire in me? Did I have any desire to want to change my set of circumstances? I wasn’t entirely sure and it was that uncertainty that made me uneasy. I hadn’t had a bad upbringing, nor was my standard of living bad. I couldn’t complain, as I was often reminded by Dad, as I had it better than some. I suppose the real question I had, deep inside my brain, was where did I realistically see myself in ten or twenty years?
Would I be a doctor? Helping save lives and making life-and-death decisions all day seemed like a high-power, exciting job and there was always good pay for doctors. It was a profession that wouldn’t go out of fashion, like undertakers, as Dad would always remind me. He always told me if he was sacked from his job, which he was threatened with about three or four times a year on average, he would become an undertaker. He didn’t seem to mind the less appealing part of the job description: the handling of a corpse, the constant funerals you’d be attending, the general broody attitude you’d have to adopt to effectively look like you belong in your job. I suppose he had a point though, it was definitely a job that would always be around.
Maybe I could be a teacher and pass my knowledge on to a younger generation. Saying that, it is important to have a fair amount of knowledge yourself before you decide to attempt to impart it on younger, more fragile minds. Plus, I remember how much disdain I had for certain teachers in school. It didn’t fill me with confidence. I’d have to be one of the ‘cool’ teachers who was in touch with the ‘kids’, opposed to the slightly creepy teachers who, if you listened to some of the rumours started at dinner time, preferred to get to know the children a little better than they should. Maybe teaching was off the list then. Another possible job hitting the bin of rejection hard and fast, joining astronaut, lawyer, ninja and president of my own small country.
The ‘other’ option though, now that was scary.
“Have you been down the market this week Sue?” asked Gaynor.
They’d obviously given up on what I had said under my breath; it was that or they’d gotten bored of waiting for me to respond. No, I knew for a fact that they hadn’t given up. They’d just decided that the two-for-one deal on scouring pads in the regular Tuesday outdoor market was just far too important to let slip into the recesses of their memories. For the love of all that is sacred, I could not imagine how life in Merthyr would continue for these women if they didn’t have scouring pads. I knew for a fact that Gaynor bought in bulk, like some sort of weird dealer, so that she was always equipped should the time arise when there was a scouring shortage in the Valleys. Shame is, the only shortage would be when she’d bought the allocated stock for Cardiff, Swansea and Newport and kept it under her sink.
“No. I didn’t manage to get down there this week. That bloody get from the insurance firm rung. Oh! I tell you! I was on the phone, wait for it...half an hour!”
“Never to God!” Gaynor shook her head, with utter disbelief.
She seemingly couldn’t fathom a half an hour conversation over the phone with the insurance firm. It wasn’t unheard of, but to Gaynor, it was like nothing she’d ever had to go through.
It was during this interchange that I decided I’d switch rooms. The kitchen had been my refuge for a couple of minutes. Those precious seconds had been stolen away though when Mam had come in from hanging out the washing. The peace that I had been craving, and had found in the kitchen, was instantly shattered moments later when Gaynor joined the fray, sweeping into the room like some sort of dramatic caped crusader in her coat. I’m not going to lie, normally I’d call her all the things under the sun for running from one side of the street to the other in a coat. Today however, I think the weather did warrant the wearing of an anti-rain piece of clothing. The heavens had opened and it was lashing down, something akin to what Noah experienced probably. But what Noah would worry about would only be classed as a ‘light shower’ in Merthyr, where rain was part of the national identity.
Also, in Gaynor’s defence, the last time it had been raining and she’d made the dash from her house to our house, Dad had decided it wasn’t a day he could cope with her and had promptly locked the door. I had to admit, there was something funny about seeing Gaynor having a fit, trying to clamber into the four or five inches of space the alcove of the door provided, shouting that she had something really important to tell Mam. Even Mam had laughed as we had watched Gaynor go to run back across the street, only to be confronted with a woman in heels’ worst nightmare: a puddle on a day of torrential rain.
Leaving Mam and Gaynor in the kitchen, I wandered into the front room and sat myself down on the settee, before realising that the television wasn’t on and for once, I couldn’t be bothered to find a remote to rectify the situation.
The rain was hitting the window with some force now, almost as if it wanted to break through the panes of glass and begin to fill the whole house with water. There’s something odd and hypnotic about watching and listening to rain hitting a window. It’s calming in a way not many other types of weather are able to match. Finally, I had a bit of peace to think. I could resume my mental probing, as I had been before my fortifications had been stormed by Mam and Gaynor.
As soon as I’d achieved my goal however, fate had other plans. The door opened, followed by a rasp of cold air and rain and with them, they brought Dad. Or the man I assumed was Dad. He was wrapped up in layer upon layer of clothing. His big thick coat zipped to the top, buttoned for extra security, which I never understood really. It wasn’t as if someone was going to come up to him in the street and steal the coat off him by using the old unzip and run off with it trick. It was his trainers that gave him away, brilliantly white in contrast to the rest of his clothing, looking almost brand new. He’d had them for ages, but again, his desire to have everything spotless meant that his shoes and trainers were treated like an extension of the family. He was forever wiping them over when out walking, stopping mid-stride if he noticed a fleck of dirt before bending over and wiping it away, then continuing on his journey.
“Bloody Hell! Unbelievable out there it is!” he said, out of breath.
I bet he’d tried to run up the street, a battle he was sure to lose. He wasn’t quite as fit as he had been when he was younger, though he’d never have you believe that. In his mind, he was still the all star rugby player who all the girls in school wanted to be with and all the boys envied. He kept on saying about this try or that try, how he’d turned games around in the final moments and was more often than not the most valuable human being on or anywhere near that pitch.
“I wouldn’t have needed to have gone out in it to tell you that,” I replied, which wasn’t even supposed to sound sarcastic, even though it inevitably did as soon as it left my mouth.
“Oh alright you! Bloody clever arse by ‘ere. Where’s your mam ‘en?” he asked.
It would be at his peril that he entered the kitchen now but I decided it should be his choice and his alone.
“Kitchen.”
“Ah, good. I’m starving. Oh, hiya Gayn,” I heard him say as he opened the kitchen door. He wasn’t in there for five seconds before he came back into the front room, sat opposite me and said, “’The Gob’ is ‘ere ‘en.”
“Ai. Came over to tell Mam about Marian haven’t she?”
“Marian? What have she done now?”
The scary thing, was that I should have known this. I was in the room while Gaynor was explaining whatever heinous crime Marian had committed but I had zoned out in there, lost in thought, and if truth be told, I honestly couldn’t remember.
“I dunno. You know what she’s like,” I offered.
It wasn’t much of an offering at all but it felt better than nothing at all. It was then that I caught Dad giving me ‘the look’. I knew ‘the look’ all too well. I had encountered it before and here it was again, standing tall before me and not giving any ground.
‘The look’ came out every now and again, mostly when Dad suspected I may not be entirely at ease or when he felt something wasn’t quite right with a situation. One time that sticks out for me was when we were down at Porthcawl during the summer. I used to love going down there, whether it was for a day out or even staying for a few days in a caravan in Trecco Bay or Sandy Beach. It always felt like the seaside was a million miles removed from the Valleys. Even though it only took about an hour to get to in the car from Merthyr, Porthcawl felt like a different world in a different dimension. It was like Tenby or the Mumbles.
It was on such a trip down to the beach that I’d run into trouble with another boy. He was from Cardiff, or so his accent suggested. There’d been a gang of us playing, mucking around as only children can, happy enough in our own worlds. I remember now how this boy, who was about a year or two older than me, had berated me for being from Merthyr. I was called all the names going. I was ‘thick’, ‘scummy’, ‘common’. I only wish that I’d had an insult dictionary as big as his at the time. My lack of response didn’t make me look very much like a ‘ruffian from the Gurnos’, which I came to understand was where anybody who’d heard of Merthyr assumed everyone lived in the town and that we were all social reprobates. We were portrayed as demons from a backwater town, like the bad guy from a Western.
The name-calling had taken a toll on me though, try as I might to drive it from my mind. I don’t know why this boy had such a profound effect on me. It wasn’t like I hadn’t had the odd insult from boys in school from time to time. I could take it. It was banter. Though banter was normally between friends and it was quickly established that the child from Cardiff and I weren’t friends at all. Far from it.
I’d been sat on a deckchair in the tiny patch of grass outside the caravan which was advertised as ‘a garden’, yet felt more like a small island of green surrounded by paving slabs and pebbled stones, when Dad had wandered out of the caravan. He had ‘those’ shorts on, the ones that made me feel extremely uncomfortable being around him whilst he was wearing them. Between the fact I don’t think he’d worn them since his rugby days in school and the fact they were bright green, it wasn’t a look that endeared me to him. Nonetheless, he could see that something had been bothering me and when I told him what had been said to me by the boy from Cardiff, he had laughed it off before straightening up and delivering one of those father-son talks. It was rare that he broke them out. He was a man’s man, a ‘Valley Man’. He didn’t show feelings or things like that but every now and then, he’d forget what he ‘should’ be and be who he really was.
He told me that the boy didn’t know what he was talking about, he’d never been to Merthyr and of anyone to call ‘thick’, I was the least likely candidate for the role. He went on to say how you should be proud of where you’re from, wherever it is on the map, as it does help to shape you in the long run of life. He told me that when I lost my perspective or felt like I was above and beyond my home, it was the day I’d forgotten who I really was and he said he never wanted that from me. No matter where I was from, I could achieve anything and everything I put my mind to, and it would be sweeter when it finally happened.
I could feel ‘the look’ burning in to me now, as I snapped back to reality, with the help of what was likely a clap of thunder. I couldn’t be too certain, I had gone into my own little world for a moment and everything around me had ceased to be.
No, it was definitely thunder. It roared again, primal and angry in the distance but with a sense of inevitable approach.
“So, you gonna tell me wha’s up with you ‘en? Or am I gonna have to be Mystic Meg uh?” asked Dad.
“Oh it’s nowt mun. Don’t worry.”
I wasn’t the most convincing of liars at this point. Even I wouldn’t have believed me. My poker face wasn’t the best in Merthyr today.
“Fine. Have it your way, again.”
I couldn’t quite believe it. He’d dropped it. Without so much as a fight, this was unheard of, and I wasn’t sure if I liked it. Where was the struggle? The normality of the conversation had just been lost. I was in uncharted waters now.
“What do you mean ‘fine’?” I asked, almost annoyed.
“Well, fine innit? You know. If you don’t want to tell me wha’s on you mind, you haven’t got to like.”
“Oh I see what you’re trying to do.”
“What? What do you think I’m trying to do? I’m not trying to do anything.”
“Ai, alright.”
I rolled my eyes at this point, trying to show him that I’d worked out his scheme. I don’t know what was worse, fighting to get a word in edgeways with Mam and Gaynor out in the kitchen or being interrogated, albeit rather poorly, by Dad in the front room.
“Oh! Don’t be funny now mun. Just tell me wha’s wrong. I can see something is up with you. So you may as well come clean.”
I decided at this point that I was through with avoiding the subject. I couldn’t dilly-dally around it for much longer. I had been brought up on the premise of there being a subject to discuss and now, it was time to discuss it.
Discussing things was something people in the Valleys could do for hours I found. Days and weeks if the need called for such action. Gone were the days of industrial strikes and action to get a point across, nowadays, we were much more happy to just talk about it. Even then, it would be talking about doing something in order to get ready to eventually do something. We’d wrap ourselves up in so many stages of preparation that the something we meant to be doing it all for would be lost in the ensuing mess.
Gaynor was very good at discussing. Normally it was other people’s lives or habits, rather than matters of the state or of national importance to Wales. Give her a cuppa and she’d ‘discuss’ for hours, as she probably would do tonight over here. I sometimes thought Mam and Dad should ask for rent from her, as the time spent in our house sometimes did make me question the need for her own house. There again, Alan would need somewhere to live I suppose. Of everybody, he probably had the best deal; he had his peace. He probably had the heating on and was relaxed in one of their big new leather chairs in front of the television.
Anyone who had survived a marriage to Gaynor for as long as Alan had, in my opinion, deserved some sort of medal for outstanding bravery. I believe they were up to something like 27 years at the moment, which by anyone’s standards isn’t a bad run for marriage, especially when the woman in question is Gaynor Lewis. I think some men would rather try their luck at working behind enemy lines rather than entering into a lawful partnership with that woman.
“You want me to tell you wha’s wrong do you?” I said to my father, in a way that tried to almost dissuade him from pressing me on the subject.
“Well, as long as it’s sometime this century butt.”
He let out a little snigger at his own jibe before composing himself and getting himself ready for the big announcement that was coming his way.
The silence of the room didn’t make me feel easier about having to just come out and say it. The rain on the window had become less than background noise now, being barely noticeable and Mam’s conversation with Gaynor was lost on the wind somewhere other than here. Dad looked at me from behind his bright blue eyes, expectant of my news report. Could I even look at him when I was about to say it? It was such a stupid idea. One that would be instantly shot down, that’s one reason why I’d remained so quiet in the kitchen when Mam and ‘The Gob’ had tried their hands at being the Gestapo. I looked into my father’s face, of which I was apparently ‘the image’ according to all the women in the family, and prepared to risk complete and utter embarrassment.
“It’s about my rugby it is.”
Even after I’d uttered it, the room temperature seemed to plummet. I had shown a face full of doubt and combined it with the mention of rugby to boot. My mind raced now, attempting to think if I could swerve this somehow. Maybe I could avert disaster and make something up.
No. He’d know.
That was one skill I never took away from him: his uncanny ability to ‘know’. I aspired to learn this art someday.
“Right...” cautioned Dad.
You could tell by the rolling of his ‘r’ that he was as uncomfortable as me. I felt like I’d copied answers from a child in school and was trying to explain myself to a terrifying teacher, the ones who keep edging you for more information and reasoning behind your crimes to humanity. He looked searchingly at me, waiting for me to continue.
I was looking him right in the eyes now.
I just had to come out and say it. I knew it would go down like a Spitfire over the White Cliffs of Dover but it needed to be put into words.
“Well I think I want to give it up like.”
There, I’d gone and said it.
Dave Mustaine: The System Has Failed
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Megadeth frontman Dave Mustaine has always been a bit controversial |
Check out the 'rant' below
During a gig in Singapore, Mustaine accused the United States President, Barack Obama, of 'staging' the tragic shootings in Aurora last month, in which James Holmes opened fire in a cinema complex in the quiet Colorado town, killing 12 people and wounding 58, in order to pass a gun ban. Obama was also prime suspect for the similiar 'staging' of the Sikh temple shootings in Wisconsin, where Wade Michael Page took the lives of six people, injured others and took his own life before he could be apprehended.
Now, I'm a huge fan of Dave Mustaine as a talent and a huge fan of the band (my quarrel isn't with them), but surely Dave was just a little out of line with those comments? They were the rambling claims of conspiracy that somebody like Jesse 'the Body' Ventura would no doubt endorse. It has been no secret that Dave is 'switched-on' to American politics and takes a great deal of interest in the way that his country is governed. His anti-Obama stance has been made very clear on more than one occasion but this time may just have taken the proverbial biscuit.
To think that the President of the United States of America would orchestrate two events that can be only described as tradegies and massacres is a bit far-fetched, even for the controversial frontman. To feed the notion that his country is becoming like a Nazi state is ridiculous. Surely Dave must see that these were isolated incidents, not aided in any way by the American gun laws as they currently stand. These types of grisly events have a terrible habit of reappearing through time and everytime they do, the finger of blame is pointed back at government and conspiracy runs rampant.
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Are scenes like this down to a conspiracy rooted in US government? |
I think it shows what fear, paranoia and extremism can do to the ordinary, average citizen. I believe that even though rockstars, like many other celebrities, have immense power and influence over the masses due to their inspirational, iconic statuses, they should stick to playing the music that they're amazingly good at playing and leave the politics and the conspiracies, the war-of-words and all the other crap that comes with 'standing up against government', to those who don't have anything better to do.
It was interesting as well to notice that in subsequent interviews, Mustaine has attempted to clear up his on-stage rant. He mentioned that when he said 'Obama', he infact means the administration. That means there's 'rogue' members of one of the most powerful countries in the world. Just check the video of the response to the comments on the Alex Jones-led (and he's something else as well) InfoWars.com Nightly News video:
What do you think about Dave Mustaine's claims? Do his words have merit and is Obama really staging vicious shootings in order to sway public opinion his way for a gun ban? Or is Dave getting embroiled in something way bigger than him and should he stay out?
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